Today is day to wrap up a couple of loose ends. (Song complements of Matchbox 20.)
One of the more helpful books I have read lately is by Nancy and David Guthrie, "When Your Family's Lost a Loved One." Nancy is writing a letter to her daughter Hope a few months after she died. "But you are so far away and becoming even more distant in my memory and it is so painful. And I feel weak. I used to fell strong - when you where here and in the months after you left-I hurt but felt strong spiritually, emotionally. Now I just feel numb and weak and lacking purpose. I don't know how to let you go and hold onto you at the same time. I don't know how to feel pain and embrace joy at the same time. Forgive me for going on with life without you. Forgive me for forgetting what you sound like and what you looked like and what it felt like. "
I spent the day at Wendy's. I have started the boxes of stuff for you. For the bulk of the stuff boxes, I know how to get in touch with you but not everyone. So we will play Clue for the people I don't have a current address.
If you are reading this, and you ate dinner with Mom and I at Olive Garden in Cary a few years ago for my birthday, I have the letters you wrote Mom. She made me promise to get these if something happened. [Or if you know who this is and can let them know, that would be great.] If you would like to have these, please send me an email.
If you watched OJ and the white bronco at Mom's house with me, I also have letters for you.
There were a couple of good finds today. Ron - I found a chalk drawing of you and Mom. Will send your way. You guys were very cute. There were also a bunch of Mom cartoons. If these have meaning to you, please let me know and I will send them your way.
Wendy and I also found our adoption papers along with Mom's today. Did you know, Mom's middle name before she was adopted was Earline. How good is that? Can you not just see the look on her face I would get over that.
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I didn't know you were adopted. I don't know if you know Sharis and John Howell, but both of them were adopted. It's interesting, a married couple, both of whom were adopted. Actually Sharis's story is good enough for a novel. I'll share it with you some day!
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