Body Electric

Okay, I liked the movie "Fame".

It is has been a busy day, and I am a list of lists. Between work and trying to get Zach off to school, I have become the Lady of the Lists.

Lists to me are not organizational tools, they are instruments of stress. I have always worked from a calendar/master list/task list and I feel very bound by the structure that I use to organize my day. It is the act of writing something down that actually moves it to the part of my brain that organizes my day. [I used a Palm Pilot for the longest time and actually felt more unorganized. I never got past the act of writing. It was such an effort to write a note, that I lost the path that moved this to my organizational brain. I would write the appointment down, but would never file it internally, so I always felt like I was free falling across the day.] Typing actually accomplishes the same purpose for me. Once I can organize my thoughts on paper, I no longer need the paper.

When I pulled in the driveway, I had forgotten to go to the cleaners (the tickets are on the visor, but it hadn't made it to my list) and I had the greatest idea. I wish I could associate a physical feeling with a task. I want the same sense urgency and relief when I accomplish something on my list. [Think of about going to the bathroom when you are pregnant - I want that feeling.]

I am coming into a busy week, day trip on Wednesday, Zach to school Friday and all of the stuff that needs to happen in between. I am in another round of "I can't sleep", but this is more of I can't slow my body/mind down, rather than the go to sleep and get up in the middle of the night. Have a Dr.'s appointment Thursday, so we will see if Jason has any new ideas.