This is from earlier last week.. I just couldn't push the publish button:
When I sit here this morning, I miss Mom. I have had a hard time with Christmas this year. December is when everything starts. Zach and I spend Christmas Eve night with Mom and go to the Christmas Eve service at First Pres in Kernersville. Later that night, Mom tells me she felt so bad that she sat there and prayed "Just to be able to make it through this service with us and not be sick. To have this memory and not be sick." I spent Zach's Birthday last year with Mom doing Chemo. This round is where Mom has the allergic reaction to the Oxalaplatin and we spend Saturday/Sunday at Wesley Long worried that she has had a stroke.
This year has left me with a list of people that I will continue to miss. I miss the space you filled in my life.
This year has also brought a new list of people that I didn't know I missed. For everyone that helped me take care of Mom, I miss you. For everyone that took care of me, I miss you. And again, I am so thankful for everything that you did for us.
What has helped me push the button is I got my feet boiled today.. As I kept trying to work my way out of the boiling hot water, all I could hear is Mom saying "We no boil feet here..."
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